Is it me?

The weight that won’t lift: 5 years that shattered strategy, stifled spirit, and what comes next

Is it me?

Established business owners across Britain are waking up tired. And it’s not from lack of sleep, but from the silent, accumulated weight of the last five years. And that weight doesn’t seem to lift. It’s not about change. We’ve always handled change. It’s about the blows that have come thick and fast, one after the other, not letting up, never allowing a clean run to plan, execute, and grow.

It’s left many of us wondering: What’s the point of setting a strategy if the next curveball will knock it sideways again? And how long can I keep giving it my all with little to show for it?

A relentless barrage of blows

First came Brexit. The uncertainty, policy vacuums, and confusion surrounding talent and trade. Then, COVID shut the world down. For those of us leading businesses, survival became the strategy.

Then came remote work, tearing at company culture, diluting cohesion, and making leadership feel like shouting into a vacuum. In the background, the social contract cracked. The trust between citizen and state weakened. Politicians talked, spun, and deflected, but few seemed to understand what it takes to build and run a business, to create jobs, fuel industries, and carry risk. The world turned unstable. Ukraine. Israel. Iran. Tariffs. War and politics, once oceans away, now influence our supply chains, margins, and moods. Closer to home, regulation grew, often layered without logic. Taxes climbed, often framed as punishment for our ambition. Cost-of-living spiked. Inflation crushed margins. And customers, understandably, became cautious.

Then came the slow decay of infrastructure. Trains delayed or cancelled. Roads riddled with potholes. Public transport expensive and unreliable. Wi-Fi that fails mid-meeting. Every journey takes longer. Every task gets harder. And all of it silently compounds the cost of doing business while collapsing the productivity of the people trying to deliver it.
And now, many of us wake up not knowing what to expect from the day. Confidence has been replaced with caution. Aspiration replaced with administration. Energy replaced with endurance.

Not one of these events, alone, breaks a business. But together, over time, they erode ambition. Blur vision. Bend your spine. Until one day, a dangerous whisper takes hold: Maybe it’s me.

When ambition starts to decay

You’re still here. Still standing. Still showing up. But something’s shifted. The joy has thinned. The excitement to try something new has dulled. That forward-leaning energy that built your business in the first place? It feels like it’s caught in mud. And self-doubt creeps in: “Maybe I’ve lost my touch.” Cynicism follows: “The system doesn’t care. Why should I?”
You start to feel like a criminal for trying to grow. Like a threat for employing people. Like a loophole the taxman forgot to close.

This isn’t about laziness or weakness. It’s fatigue. And not the kind a weekend off will fix. It’s the fatigue of holding it all together for too long, with too little support, and too many headwinds.

So what now?

If any of this resonates, know this: You’re not alone. And you’re not broken. I didn’t build a business to make money. I built it to make something matter. And that hasn’t changed. The world has. So we must change how we stand inside it. Accept that the environment is not friendly. Accept that help is not coming. And refuse to let it define the quality of your thoughts or actions.

What to do about it

Guard your time and attention

Your calendar is your castle. If you don’t control it, everything else controls you. Focus it on creation, not reaction.

Reconnect with why you started

What problem did you want to solve? What difference did you want to make? Return to that fire.

Stop playing the old game

The rules have changed. Trying to play bigger might not work right now. Play sharper. Play focused. Less noise. More value.

Rebuild your systems

You can’t scale chaos. Systems don’t just create consistency. They buy you freedom to think, lead, and breathe.

Choose your company carefully

Not everyone earns a seat at your table. Surround yourself with builders, problem-solvers, and believers.

Speak to yourself with respect

You wouldn’t berate a fellow founder going through this. Don’t do it to yourself.

A stand worth taking

The world will do what it does. Markets will twist. Policies will flip. But your business remains your fight. And your response? That’s yours alone. If you’re still reading this, you’re still standing. And if you’re still standing, you’re not done. You’re not just building a business. You’re building meaning. And that’s always been worth the fight. Create a business that runs with you, not because of you. That’s how you fall back in love with what you do, and keep doing it well.

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Pavlo Phitidis
Pavlo Phitidis
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